Not my usual Friday.

This was a productive day for me.  I got home around 930 AM, played and gave Nyx his bath first then went out to meet a good friend from high school. She will be leaving for Singapore before the month ends and I’m so proud of all her achievements in life so far. Despite all her outstanding merits, she remained humble and down to earth.  It always feels good to surround ourselves with positive people because it attracts all the positive energy we need to move forward in life. We had a good laugh and we shared stories about our common friends. It’s really nice to be with the people we grew up with sometimes kasi it reminds us of how we were like when we were younger. ☺

 Anyway, I got home around 1230 PM and I found Nyx waiting for me by the doorstep.

He was a bit mad na hindi ko sya sinama. The original plan kasi was to let him come with me kaso when I went out after giving him his bath, super init sa labas and I was too protective of his skin kasi super sensitive nga. So un na nga, I left him at home na lang.

We started our usual lessons and it made a whole lot difference kasi this time, I was teaching him sa sala with the whole family. He was not taking it too seriously so retention wasn’t as good as when we were having our lessons privately in my room. So next time, lessons will be held only in MY ROOM. J

Erick arrived around 230 PM and I joined him for lunch. This does not usually happen kasi I usually eat ahead of him. We went upstairs, had some kulitan with Nyx then we dozed off na. J

Nga pla, I decided not to push thru with the Cebu flight so I didn’t pay it kasi I have read many blogs and it suggests na its best if we go for Cebu-Bohol trip so return flight should be departing from Tagbilaran so it won’t be too pricey. I’ll just stand by for more promos. I’m sure I’ll catch a good one pretty soon. J

I wasn’t feeling good when I left the house kasi Nyx had slight fever then. It may be due to colds or the weather. I hope he’s ok na by tomorrow. Sana naman hindi to dahil na-stress sya sa lessons namin. I hope I’m not being too hard on him. L

Our initial plan was to spend the weekend in Batangas (Erick’s family house), due to Nyx’s condition, we might not be able to push through with the plan. Lately kasi napapadalas ang labas nya. So most likely, we’ll end up staying at home  during the weekend then Monday morning, Erick and I may just spend a day in Batangas. I hope Nyx will get well soon.

This was definitely not my usual Friday.

 I hope a great weekend will make up for it. :)

Have a great weekend everyone! ☺

On Anger and Tantrums.

" As a single mom you have to play the roles of both a mother as well as a father. This is the most difficult aspect of being a single mom apart from the financial challenges. You have to pamper your precious children as a mother and also scold them like a father when they go wrong."

-Unknown quotes

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This morning, while I was walking home, I was surprised to see Nyx sitting on a couch outside his Mommy Hermie's house. He was comfortably seated playing with his Ninang Beth's Ipad while his Mommy Hermie was fixing the laundry. I asked that we go home kasi nakakahiya na. As per his Mommy Hermie, he's been there for almost 2 hours na. Without thinking, Nyx rushed to me and waved goodbye na to his Mommy Hermie.

While we were on our way home, pinapagalitan nya ko kasi I brought his tablet to work. This past few days, or even months, since we bought that tablet, addicted na sya dito. As in, he gets frustated when the battery gets drained. Frustrated din tuloy ako kasi nagtatantrums sya. This has always been the cause of chaos in our house. Lahat kasi inaaway ni Nyx when he gets upset or frustrated.

When we reached home, my mom told me na Nyx woke up several times in the middle of the night expressing his anger towards me. As in galit daw ang anak ko saken. When he woke up, he told Mama daw..

"Galit na talaga ako kay Mommy! Ayaw nya ko tabi mag-sleep tapos dala nya pa tablet sa work, di na nya ko love! Di ko na sya love! "

Oh my. My heart broke to pieces. So I immediately gave him the "usap tayo" look then we headed upstairs na.

I asked him if he's mad at me and he said NO naman.. I explained to him na I work during the night and would therefore need to sleep daytime kaya hindi kami pwede magtabi magsleep.. I explained na during restdays lang kami pwede magtabi magsleep or during his nap time. I explained it to him the best way I could kahit na alam kong di pa nya naiintindihan.

It hurts kasi my son is such a sweet kid. I'm sure everyone would agree na after ng weekend bonding time usually the next day when you have to work again, the child usually develops seperation anxiety. Then come midweek, its like they have gotten used to it na ulit. Come weekend ayan na naman, di na naman kayo mapaghihiwalay.

Sigh.

I wish I dont have to work so I can be with my son all the time.

I try as much as I can to take his bath and join him for lunch para we have bonding time pa din even during weekdays. I also try to include some lessons during our bed time bonding so he'd learn something from me na din even during bonding time. I want quality time with my son. I guess we all want nothing but quality time with our loved ones naman e.

Nyx is very expressive and demonstrative din. If he doesnt want me around, he,d say..

"Mommy, sleep ka na please.."

or

"Mommy, punta ka na work please..."

When were together naman, he'll give me non stop kisses and hugs and he wants me to do everything with him - bathing, eating, playing, watching TV, studying and many other things.

Hay. I wish he'll stay that way forever. The feeling na he doesnt need anyone but me.

But honestly, I really need to work on my son's manners. I feel na nagiging bully na sya masyado saka he seems impatient din. Erick and I should work together in molding his character. I need to start working on it now.

 I just found this quote online and its so true! ♥♥

"Being a single parent is twice the work, twice the stress and twice the tears but also twice the hugs, twice the love and twice the pride."

-Unknown

Let's all have a great day ahead! ☺