On Breaking a bad habit.

I know..

I made a promise to myself and to almost everyone close to me that I'd  quit smoking..

I'm sure most of them noticed that I am "slowly" reverting back to my old ways..

I'm seriously trying not to think about it..

But it's hard to break an old habit..

When something has formed part of your routine and when it becomes part of your system for 8 long years..

It's hard to breakaway from it..

I came across an article which talks about how to break an old habit..maybe I should continue reading up on it.

Maybe, quitting smoking also takes technique - not just DISCIPLINE.

I should think of ways on how not to think of a cigarette whenever I see someone smoking..

Maybe I should think of other things to do when I get up in the morning, when I'm in the restroom, during my idle time.. during my short break time and during all those times when I cant think of any other thing to do but smoke.

Other people crave for coffee in the morning...
Other people read magazines when they are all by themselves in the restroom..
Other people sleep during lunchtime in the office..
Other people chat with friends on the phone or in person during their idle time..


All these they do.. when I feel an urge to smoke.

I better find good diversions.

The clock is ticking.

I need to stop now.

On Quitting Smoking

Day 8

Sunday was a busy day, I craved for a cigarette in Tagaytay (it's so hard to resist kasi malamig!) and I had to give in. I smoked once. I was afraid to have extreme withdrawal symptoms and I spoke with Erick about that so he agreed.

 Apparently, it seems too ambitious for me to go on cold-turkey this early. I'm sticking to my 1-cigarette-a-day diet. That's still a big drop, isn't it?!

I hope I can go on all the way to being nicotine-free in one month. Big savings and better life. ☺

On Quitting Smoking

In 2004, my family decided to send me to a University more than 250 kilometres away from my hometown. It was not an easy decision to make for everyone, including me, since I was barely 16 years old then. I felt all kinds of fears but my eagerness to study and graduate in a prominent university motivated me to go on and reach for my dreams. Hence, I took up Bachelor of Arts in Economics, Minor in Psychology in University of the Philippines, Baguio in 2004.

Upon my admission in the University, was alcohol and nicotine-free. I studied in a catholic school for 12 long years and I guess I was just lucky I was not influenced nor forced to try vices of any type. During my first week as a freshie, I was curious to try smoking. They said it tastes better when in a cold setting such as Baguio. I tried it and since almost all my friends during that time were smoking too, I got into it. Eventually, after days or so, I tried drinking out with friends and soon, I also got into it. And this is where it all started.

My parents smoke and I remember years back how I hated the smell of cigarette. Haaay! I didn’t want to be like them growing up so I was trying hard to fight every urge to puff and smoke cigar. As we mature, life becomes more stressful and we create this illusion in our heads that smoking can somehow reduce and overcome stress. I don’t want to be hypocrite and tell you that I have completely shrugged off the thought of smoking. I’m still in the process of kicking the habit. What motivates me? Erick doesn’t smoke and he doesn’t drink, he has been so persistent in influencing me to stop smoking. I have stopped drinking for 7 months now - from a drunkard, I am now an occasional drinker (yehey!).  Erick has a lot of faith in me that I’ll eventually stop smoking – as in cold turkey. I wish I have that same faith in myself.

Also, one other MAJOR reason why I want to quit is because price of cigarette has more than doubled over the past weeks! OMG! That’s too much for a bad habit!   

Plus, another reason why I want to finally quit is because Erick taught Nyx how to say: “Don’t smoke na please?”  How can you say NO to that?!

Today is my 6^th day of trying not to smoke. It’s hard. It gets harder whenever I hear stories from people who failed several times in their attempt to kick the habit. There were a lot of challenges along the way, but I’m thankful for the support I get from Erick and my friends - from almost 12 sticks per day, I am now down to 1 stick per day. Everything is possible. I want to start living a healthier life so I can live longer for my loved ones – most especially for my son. J

Here’s a thought that I would like to share with everyone who’s sharing the same journey.. 

"Desire is the starting point of all achievement, not a hope, not a wish, but a keen pulsating desire, which transcends everything".  

Let’s stay positive! J