Letting go...

I slept at around 6 PM and woke up at 12 midnight. Time check - 5:06 AM. 

I can't sleep yet.. 

or maybe..

I just don't wanna sleep yet.

Is there ever a point in your life when you feel overly emotional and sensitive about all things? including the littlest things? 

I'd like to believe I'm still normal.. so I hope I am not the only girl who goes through this phase. 

I just wish men start to realize that women have hormones they don't have. So we get emotional and sensitive about almost all things. When we do, all it takes is a hug or a kiss to take the frown away. An argument is the last thing we need. :/

Anyway, I came across these quotes. 

Happiness is a choice. People come and go and everything happens for a reason. It's your choice if you want to dwell over the bad vibes. Its also a choice to smile and just move on. :) It's better to be happy.. just count all the blessings in your life and don't focus on the negative energies. :)

Life is too short to be anything but happy. So let's all create our own brand of happiness and live with it. :)

So to end this post, I also wanna share this note: 

True!! :)

Good Morning! :)

On Saying Goodbye.

Don't be dismayed at goodbyes.  A farewell is necessary before you can meet again.  And meeting again, after moments or lifetime, is certain for those who are friends. 

~Richard Bach

This is not a sad post. This is more of a realization that people come and go just like that. You have shared the fondest memories as friends and you even turn to them as families, and in an instant - in a blink of an eye, in a snap of a finger, you become strangers.

Haaay! Time flies so fast.

Anyway, one of my dearest colleagues, has just left the company. She resigned kasi she wanted to shift careers daw. Oh well, I kinda envy her kasi finally, she'll live a normal life - wake up to the smell of hot pandesal in the morning, the tik-ti-la-ok sound of roosters before the sun peeks, go home before the sun sets and many other things a day job offers. Most important of all, sleep soundly at night. She accepted a job from one of the prestigous manufacturing companies here in the Philippines. The compensation is not as high as what this call center industry offers, but she was offered a decent salary. It was a smooth transition for her kasi she's single and she doesn't have as much obligations as I do. I wish I can decide just like that to finally have a career (inggitera mode lang! ).

Anyway, I wish you nothing but success, Crissy! ♥ Last Saturday, we got together after work  - we pigged out, sang our hearts out and had a few bottles of beer while making a lot of tsismisan. (To follow na lang ung pictures! ) It was not as cheesy as Nicole's despedida pero it was definitely one of our "inuman sessions" worth remembering! ♥♥

And to Nicole, also one of our dearest colleagues who resigned in November 2012 to work overseas, may you also have a fruitful journey as you reach your dreams and aspirations in life! ♥♥

Why can't we get all the people together in the world that we really like and then just stay together?  I guess that wouldn't work.  Someone would leave.  Someone always leaves.  Then we would have to say good-bye.  I hate good-byes.  I know what I need.  I need more hellos. 

 ~Charles M. Schulz

Defending myself on not posting pictures YET. :)

I'm sure you might be wondering why I havent posted any pictures of my son nor any of our escapades here yet. I have a good explanation to that. I dont have my own laptop/personal computer and internet connection YET. I have been contemplating a lot on buying my own laptop but I'd like to avoid splurging yet since the year has just started. Plus, I wanna establish a secure savings first before spending on not-so-important things. Erick and I bought my son a tablet PC on his 3rd birthday and he's so much into playing with it. Even if I subscribe myself in an internet connection, I know na magaaway lang kami ng anak ko kasi I'd ofcourse use it  most of the time. So wag na lang muna. I upload most of our pics sa facebook and that's way easier coz its not that time consuming. I use my lola's PC for that. I can actually go there anytime and use it hassle-free kaso tamad ang lola nyo so I'll just wait until I have my own. ☺ I'll be glad to keep this blog well -maintained with stories and pictures as soon as I have the means para naman it can serve its purpose - to show my son how he is growing up. ☺

I kinda have a rundown of the posts I owe this blog, and here's some that I can think of:

• Christmas celebration
• New Year's Celebration
• Nyx's 3rd birthday
• Tagaytay with Erick - January 5th
• Tagaytay with Inay, Melissa, Nyx and Erick - January 20th

Mahaba-habang posts to. I'm just glad that I made the decision to start blogging again. I started checking on my multiply blog again, I read thru all the articles and it feels good to have everything almost recorded during those days. It brings back a lot of memories and it reminds me of the lessons that I should have learned from every bad decision I made in the past.

I came across this quote and I wanna share it here:

“Certain things, they should stay the way they are.

 You ought to be able to stick them in one of those

 big glass cases and just leave them alone.” ― J.D. Salinger, The Catcher in the Rye

I just realized that it's true. There are some things that we cannot change and no matter how hard we try to change it, it just cant be changed. We just have to find a place for it somewhere just leave it there and MOVE ON. ☺ Life is bigger only if we EXPLORE it. ♥♥♥

Let's all stay positive!!! ☺

On Quitting Smoking

In 2004, my family decided to send me to a University more than 250 kilometres away from my hometown. It was not an easy decision to make for everyone, including me, since I was barely 16 years old then. I felt all kinds of fears but my eagerness to study and graduate in a prominent university motivated me to go on and reach for my dreams. Hence, I took up Bachelor of Arts in Economics, Minor in Psychology in University of the Philippines, Baguio in 2004.

Upon my admission in the University, was alcohol and nicotine-free. I studied in a catholic school for 12 long years and I guess I was just lucky I was not influenced nor forced to try vices of any type. During my first week as a freshie, I was curious to try smoking. They said it tastes better when in a cold setting such as Baguio. I tried it and since almost all my friends during that time were smoking too, I got into it. Eventually, after days or so, I tried drinking out with friends and soon, I also got into it. And this is where it all started.

My parents smoke and I remember years back how I hated the smell of cigarette. Haaay! I didn’t want to be like them growing up so I was trying hard to fight every urge to puff and smoke cigar. As we mature, life becomes more stressful and we create this illusion in our heads that smoking can somehow reduce and overcome stress. I don’t want to be hypocrite and tell you that I have completely shrugged off the thought of smoking. I’m still in the process of kicking the habit. What motivates me? Erick doesn’t smoke and he doesn’t drink, he has been so persistent in influencing me to stop smoking. I have stopped drinking for 7 months now - from a drunkard, I am now an occasional drinker (yehey!).  Erick has a lot of faith in me that I’ll eventually stop smoking – as in cold turkey. I wish I have that same faith in myself.

Also, one other MAJOR reason why I want to quit is because price of cigarette has more than doubled over the past weeks! OMG! That’s too much for a bad habit!   

Plus, another reason why I want to finally quit is because Erick taught Nyx how to say: “Don’t smoke na please?”  How can you say NO to that?!

Today is my 6^th day of trying not to smoke. It’s hard. It gets harder whenever I hear stories from people who failed several times in their attempt to kick the habit. There were a lot of challenges along the way, but I’m thankful for the support I get from Erick and my friends - from almost 12 sticks per day, I am now down to 1 stick per day. Everything is possible. I want to start living a healthier life so I can live longer for my loved ones – most especially for my son. J

Here’s a thought that I would like to share with everyone who’s sharing the same journey.. 

"Desire is the starting point of all achievement, not a hope, not a wish, but a keen pulsating desire, which transcends everything".  

Let’s stay positive! J