On Anger and Tantrums.

" As a single mom you have to play the roles of both a mother as well as a father. This is the most difficult aspect of being a single mom apart from the financial challenges. You have to pamper your precious children as a mother and also scold them like a father when they go wrong."

-Unknown quotes

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This morning, while I was walking home, I was surprised to see Nyx sitting on a couch outside his Mommy Hermie's house. He was comfortably seated playing with his Ninang Beth's Ipad while his Mommy Hermie was fixing the laundry. I asked that we go home kasi nakakahiya na. As per his Mommy Hermie, he's been there for almost 2 hours na. Without thinking, Nyx rushed to me and waved goodbye na to his Mommy Hermie.

While we were on our way home, pinapagalitan nya ko kasi I brought his tablet to work. This past few days, or even months, since we bought that tablet, addicted na sya dito. As in, he gets frustated when the battery gets drained. Frustrated din tuloy ako kasi nagtatantrums sya. This has always been the cause of chaos in our house. Lahat kasi inaaway ni Nyx when he gets upset or frustrated.

When we reached home, my mom told me na Nyx woke up several times in the middle of the night expressing his anger towards me. As in galit daw ang anak ko saken. When he woke up, he told Mama daw..

"Galit na talaga ako kay Mommy! Ayaw nya ko tabi mag-sleep tapos dala nya pa tablet sa work, di na nya ko love! Di ko na sya love! "

Oh my. My heart broke to pieces. So I immediately gave him the "usap tayo" look then we headed upstairs na.

I asked him if he's mad at me and he said NO naman.. I explained to him na I work during the night and would therefore need to sleep daytime kaya hindi kami pwede magtabi magsleep.. I explained na during restdays lang kami pwede magtabi magsleep or during his nap time. I explained it to him the best way I could kahit na alam kong di pa nya naiintindihan.

It hurts kasi my son is such a sweet kid. I'm sure everyone would agree na after ng weekend bonding time usually the next day when you have to work again, the child usually develops seperation anxiety. Then come midweek, its like they have gotten used to it na ulit. Come weekend ayan na naman, di na naman kayo mapaghihiwalay.

Sigh.

I wish I dont have to work so I can be with my son all the time.

I try as much as I can to take his bath and join him for lunch para we have bonding time pa din even during weekdays. I also try to include some lessons during our bed time bonding so he'd learn something from me na din even during bonding time. I want quality time with my son. I guess we all want nothing but quality time with our loved ones naman e.

Nyx is very expressive and demonstrative din. If he doesnt want me around, he,d say..

"Mommy, sleep ka na please.."

or

"Mommy, punta ka na work please..."

When were together naman, he'll give me non stop kisses and hugs and he wants me to do everything with him - bathing, eating, playing, watching TV, studying and many other things.

Hay. I wish he'll stay that way forever. The feeling na he doesnt need anyone but me.

But honestly, I really need to work on my son's manners. I feel na nagiging bully na sya masyado saka he seems impatient din. Erick and I should work together in molding his character. I need to start working on it now.

 I just found this quote online and its so true! ♥♥

"Being a single parent is twice the work, twice the stress and twice the tears but also twice the hugs, twice the love and twice the pride."

-Unknown

Let's all have a great day ahead! ☺